Sit On The Couch and Die or Get My A$$ Moving

I took a long (too long) break from blogging as well as any form of a healthier lifestyle and I have paid for it.  I have gained 40 pounds since I stopped.  My physical health is suffering.  I had blood clots in my legs that went to my lungs over the summer, I am short of breath walking up a simple flight of stairs, I hurt everywhere, and I feel like crap every day.  My mental health is suffering as well.  I am depressed and anxious.  I feel like a failure of a mother because I can’t do the things with Katie that I should be doing.  I am uncomfortable in many social situations.  I feel like everyone is staring at me because I am so fat.  I have to force myself to leave the house some days.

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Looks like I am at a point where I have to make a decision….Sit on my couch and die or get off the f’ing couch and do something about this.

casket

I am at my highest weight ever!  I don’t know what will make this time different from the other times I’ve tried to lose weight and get healthier.  But at least I’m giving it a try and not settling for death on the couch.

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Simple plan for now…My neighbor Erin and I will be taking Katie to the Y two days a week (three days eventually… maybe more) to work out and I am starting Weight Watchers Online again.

2 thoughts on “Sit On The Couch and Die or Get My A$$ Moving

  1. I’m sorry to hear of all the difficult things that you’re going through. I know none of it is easy (I went through something similar), but you’re taking the initiative. You’re fighting for yourself and your family. That counts for something, especially since acknowledging the problem is the first step.

    Anyway, we both know this journey isn’t going to be easy, but it’ll be well worth it. I look forward to following you progress throughout it. 🙂

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